It is like I'm in an absurd loop surrounded by bright lights.
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Desks...desks...desks...desks...desks
You know how you can repeat one word over and over again and it loses meaning. I always find the word "desks" has an unusual enough sound to give such a result. That is what my job is feeling like. I keep doing the same thing over and over and it loses meaning and I'm left in an absurd moment, an existential bubble. I get into auto-drive and I don't have to think to deal. I just think to myself, "This is so absurd." Then the fact that there is always a constant onslaught of people to play seems absurd. Then the fact that people just repeat the same things over and over again becomes absurd. I don't know how many times someone has called the cut card, the wild card. How many times people have said that they have been at my table over an hour and still haven't seen a cocktail waitress and I know that they have only been their 10 minutes. Do they really think I don't have a watch?
It is like I'm in an absurd loop surrounded by bright lights.
It is like I'm in an absurd loop surrounded by bright lights.
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My God, your job sounds supremely disorienting and pointless.
ReplyDeletePerhaps it would ease your disorientation if you believed you were attempting to administer a much-needed reprieve from reality for the people coming to the table. Then, the fact that they all make the same old mistakes and carry predictable misconceptions would not get to you... you could be like Mr. Roarke from Fantasy Island hosting an unending guest list of people impatiently searching for fulfillment from you instead of in their own lives, until they are reminded otherwise by a trip to your table.
Nice way of thinking!
ReplyDeleteI feel I should clarify that I never blame the customers when they have done something that everyone else has done. In fact, if it is a joke, I laugh like it is the first time that I've heard it. That only adds to the absurdity though.
Nice way of thinking!
ReplyDeleteI feel I should clarify that I never blame the customers when they have done something that everyone else has done. In fact, if it is a joke, I laugh like it is the first time that I've heard it. That only adds to the absurdity though.